Dear James P.
Hi my recent friend. It was only half kilometers since we had a walk together. But now, we’re more than one and a half kilometer apart. And I am thinking of you. I know I’ve been too judging on your identity. Yes, I admit I am selfish of not looking even a glimpse to the validity of your short comings. I have been busy catching every details of my demands without caring at yours.
So here I am again. Trying seek help from a diplomatic form of literature for the feelings I want to express to you. I am blaming myself now because I wasted a good friendship before it even begins. I know you posses jades and emeralds engraved attitude on your persona that some people are so lucky and priviledged to have you. But unfortunately I am not one of them because for now I can’t even handle myself properly. Unlike you, neither I can even find that jewel in me. This is what I am brave at; after showing my flaws and walk away, yet having the expectations for the hopeless chance that you will still choose to stay in my uncertain heaven or hell territory.
I apologize for not treating you kind, for not listenning to your point of view. But now let me tell you first, obviously, I am not mad at you anymore. I somehow want you to remember me as someone in your life who is willing to stay away to avoid myself from hurting you. Yes I am letting go of the thought and hope that you will have me back to your life. Still, I’m not giving up on praying that you will find someone out there worth sharing your time. I won’t stop hoping that someday you’ll understand why things have to be this way. Someday you will learn to appreciate every situation and just insist your mind positively that everything happens for a reason and from that you forgive as you accept and move forward. One day you’ll realize what is happening is according plans . And following a reminder ; “God’s perfect timing” .
Maybe it’s not yet time for us. ; And Who knows what’s ahead for Us tomorow.
When you learn to patiently live and love in this way, I will be the most happiest person to see you smile at your best. 🙂
I only want you to be happy. until this very end of my letter.
Your recent hopeful friend,
Yours sincerely, LA.
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